January 21, 2009 at 11:43 am (mood, work)
On my way back from work today, I felt good…in fact I felt that love is in the air while I was listening to my ipod. As I listened to some lovey dovey songs, a blog entry on love and happiness and fairytale was forming up in my mind…
All was good, contemplating on my introduction etc..till I went to update my bankbook..and saw a certain number..and my heart sank.
Yes yes yes..I know that the economy is not doing well, in fact it’s all grey and gloomy lately, but I still can’t believe how the Bs can be sooooo super duper niao when we are actually making $?? Maybe they lost $ in their stocks?? Ahhhh…
“I am not materialistic…”
“I do not work for money…”
“I have passion in what I do…”
come on…just give me the strength to lie to myself to continue on…
just a few more lies…to let me survive a few more terms…
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January 13, 2009 at 11:13 am (mood, philosophy)
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We sometimes say we need a change,
As a change is good as a rest
But often fail to ponder
If change is for the best.
When we feel change will do the trick
And it’s time for a change,
Do we really stop to think
And have a frank exchange?
For “change, for change’s sake” can mean
That, as our rooms have faded,
When we change the wallpaper,
The furniture looks jaded.
And if we change too many things
In way, or shape, or form
Then constant need to change occurs
And change becomes the norm.
And change becomes our mentor
As change succeeds each change
And every changeless constant
That stays unchanged seems strange.
And so, if you’re sore tempted
To spawn unneeded change,
Just change your mind and see that you
Don’t change it, for a change.
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January 13, 2009 at 9:54 am (mood, work)
Joy was when I was still in my old job scope. I enjoyed teaching. I enjoyed interacting with my adorable angels. I love watching the bond between parent and child blossom even further in my classes. In short, I enjoyed work.
Now, it’s week 2 of my new job scope…which still involves teaching….but somehow things are just different. Feelings are different…when a song comes to my mind now…it will be a sad song. I guess I’m not cut out to handle stuff at management level. I don’t appreciate the idea of being sandwiched between the B and my fellow new colleagues. Working with colleagues of a different generation also poses quite a bit of challenge. They are all so kind-hearted, but yet it’s hard to stay positive in a place with so much grievances.
Life is all about choices. It was my choice to ask for a weekend off. And I should live with this choice. But somehow, I wonder at what price…
My new colleagues see me as someone perky and jovial. I am glad that they see me that way, there must be something wrong in my mind then. How can I feel unhappy on the inside, when I appear happy on the outside? Am I crazy?
When 5pm strikes, I just can’t wait to punch out and leave, as do those colleagues there.
I wish I can go back in time to my old job scope, but yet have the time to spend with my loved ones during the weekends.
I know why I’m sad now…
Because this is a wish that never be realized….
Bye bye joy…till we meet again….goodbye….
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January 12, 2009 at 4:59 am (work)
Happy new year!
Today is our 1 month wedding anniversary. It really feels good, and I am blessed to have found myself such a wonderful life partner. More on the honeymoon will be posted later.
As the saying goes, new year new start. This is so true for me. Now,my job scope has sort of shifted to another part of the co. HM and I are sort of pioneers there, there are lots to be done, and so much responsibility to take on. One part of me enjoys a new challenge, however, one part of me do not enjoy being the ’spi’ of my boss.
Well, Mr Poto said to me last night…”See the good in bad.” Even QQ also mentioned..”It’s all about perspective.” Yes, they are good advice…and I hope that I will be able to live up to all these advice.
I’ve never really enjoyed working closely together with the B. Somehow I just prefer to have a distance between the Bs of the co. and myself. I guess I can never really climb up high in the co.’s ladder. But somehow Mr Poto seems to enjoy the fact that I’m climbing, I just don’t know why. I mean, to have sudden smses from the B, long meetings with the Bs and all the arrows shoot by the Bs just sucks to moi. If I have the see the good in all these sh*t…oh well, at least I get to have my Sunday off. Yippy!
Perhaps I shall just try my best to do my new delegations well for now…and move on when the time comes…and I’m sensing the time….unless a Bb comes along….
My, oh my…2009 is going to be one hell of a ride.
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